Муза

Добър вечер музо моя
до теб сядам,
и тихо притварям очи,
оставям се на воля
с теб да слеем души!!!
Отворих сърцето си
и поезия се лее от мен,
дори слънцето завидя ни,
и потъна самотно в ноща!!!
Но аз съм щастлива,
вървя с теб по пътека от цветя,
звезди в очите ни се леят,
а ангели възпяват любовта!!!
Здравей музо моя
с теб посрещам деня,
знам че в душата ми свети
мъничка пътеводна звезда,
която в безлунните нощи,
ще ме отведе при теб у дома!!!!!!

Скитница

Скитах се по улици безкрайни
навред се лутах по света,
очите ми зареяни в хоризонти,
на пореден кръстопът сама.
И търсих дълго любовта,
и питах хората по пътя,
дали съществува тя,
някъде за мен в света?
Отвръщаха глави от мен
тези хора с души погрознели,
за които далеч е този ден,
когато скитали са от любов полудели.
A любовта била до моята врата,
през всичките тези години,
трябвало е да протегна ръка,
"толкова дълга си чакал...прости ми."

Към дома.......

Скитам по улиците,
не ми се прибира!
Вглеждам се в хората
но не те намирам!
Всеки път щом тръгна към дома
се питам защо ли се прибирам
няма никой на моята врата
пак сама се прибирам!

Lost.......

Гледах отстрани колите,
забързани в дъждовната мъгла
а аз стоях спряла с времето
сама в празното платно.
Отразена в капките дъжд
като хиляди лица раздробени,
на парченца пъзел разпилян.
Питах се къде сгреших пътя
коя улица кой завой не видях
как в тази пряка се отзовах....
Стоях в платното празно
а в ръцете ми...поредният крах.

На Х

Back to me......

My blood,
wild river,
my heart
thousand in one,
the words,
burning like fire,
Decision......
on hold.
Solution......
impossible.
I have to go....
back to me....!

To C

Hidden........

I am so tired of her,
I look at her in the mirror
I see her changed,
she looks so sad
her sense of humor gone.
her lips doesn’t smile,
her eyes always with tears
ready to fall like rivers from hell….
She doesn’t sing anymore
Her feet doesn’t dance
She doesn’t speak a lot…
She is other person now.
I know somewhere
behind that reflection,
there is other person I know,
she is strong and helpful
she is loving and always
with a smile on her lips….
I am looking now…
She is hidden…behind those tears
behind so heavy words
and middle finger in her face…..
She is guilty for killing the real one
for turning into this sad mass
of muscles and fake smiles.
I know she is there somewhere
Behind the cracks of the mirror….
I will find her and bring her back to life

To. C

Leave me in peace

I cant sleep at night,
you keep coming
in my dreams,
hurting my soul and skin
my body carry`s the signs
of your heavy words
not leaving me in peace...
Go away please,
i cant live like this
to have you in my mind
......nights and days,
you hurt me enough...
now please...
let me sleep,
let find peace
at least in my dreams.

To C.

The story of my love

Someone asked me,
What is priceless for you?
I said the smile,
the nice word
from someone you love
the hug when I cry
and the hand
that takes me up
from the dirt
when I fall.
The morning
when I open my eyes
and see that someone
is beside of me.
Then someone asked me:
What you got from that?
I said half of it in black!
When I fail….i got blamed
When I cried…I was alone
When I needed the most
Instead of good word
I got pain in my heart.
Then someone asked me:
Why you accept that?
I said: Because I loved!
Then someone told me:
Love is not about pain,
Its about care and smile.
Its about someone by your side.
Its when you wake up
to forget the nightmares
because someone was there!

To C

Forgive me

Forgive me if I ever hurt you,

forgive my mistakes

forgive me for the silence

and for the heavy words

I forgive you in moment

when you admit your mistake

when the word that hurt me

was replaced with a hug.

I forgive your silence

In that moment and time

when later you tell me

what was all about. 

To C.

Wild Thoughts

Thoughts holdem,

like a wild animals

In my head like in cage

they want to break free

to scream and shout

to ask why me?!

I hold them……..

withholder of minds...

and I am sitting 

quiet in the night

next to you 

sleeping tide….

And they shout in my head

let us out…let him know,

but I won’t 

because they hurt

and brake and throw

everything I have

everything I want….

That animals…on hold

thoughts in my head....

but out........

in silent gold…

To C.

I have been there....

I have been there
where the pain is so strong
that your heart will stop
where the hope has become
part of the devils plan.
Where your love is lost path
Where your dreams are scars.
I have been there
you think I don’t know
how to return alone?
I have learned the way
and will make it again.
Even if you give me more pain
even if u hurt me today
even if u leave me one day
I will be strong
and I will live again.

To C.

I can fly

I can fly again
my wings was healed
my thoughts was cleared
my soul was cured
and my hands untied.
You helped me
let me help u back
i will carry you
till the end of all
till u have it back
your power to fight
even then when its hard
i will be by your side.

To C

I love you

Strange day
full of passion
full of love
and then
comes the night
with you
by my side
embraced me
till i fall in sleep
came with me
in my dreams
and made them
true days
of happiness
and love again.

To C.

Enough....

Cold and distant,
looked at your eyes
like wall between us.
Blocked thoughts behind
I felt losing ground
Why? What I did?!
I didn't give love
I didn't care
did I run away…..?!
It’s never enough
For you what I have
U want more from me
Without questions asked,
It’s not working.......
you have gone too far!

To C