Fragile love

Fragile love is hiding in me,
hurt and scared inside,
With my heart beat…..
counting moments away
2-3-4- so many days
Lost moments and time
She hided in there
She build a shell
And checking from a small crack
If it safe to come….to love,
To give care again
To stop the tears from my eyes
To hold my hand and protect
Love so fragile can grow
Into guardian angel now!

To C.

Gone Alone

I wish I could sing a song
from the deeper corner of my soul
to tell you how much I love you
even now when I am gone alone.
I wish I could write you a book
full of words I didn’t say
like how much I miss you even now
when I am gone alone.
I wish I could draw a painting
to give shapes of my feelings
to show you how much I love you
even now when I am gone alone.
I wish I could create a sculpture
to make you see my full heart
to see how much I love you even now
when I am gone alone.
I wish I could build you castle
to draw the walls to paint the windows 
and all will be only words of feelings
I didn’t say…..I love you 
even now when I am gone alone!
I LOVE YOU

To C.

Муза

Добър вечер музо моя
до теб сядам,
и тихо притварям очи,
оставям се на воля
с теб да слеем души!!!
Отворих сърцето си
и поезия се лее от мен,
дори слънцето завидя ни,
и потъна самотно в ноща!!!
Но аз съм щастлива,
вървя с теб по пътека от цветя,
звезди в очите ни се леят,
а ангели възпяват любовта!!!
Здравей музо моя
с теб посрещам деня,
знам че в душата ми свети
мъничка пътеводна звезда,
която в безлунните нощи,
ще ме отведе при теб у дома!!!!!!

Скитница

Скитах се по улици безкрайни
навред се лутах по света,
очите ми зареяни в хоризонти,
на пореден кръстопът сама.
И търсих дълго любовта,
и питах хората по пътя,
дали съществува тя,
някъде за мен в света?
Отвръщаха глави от мен
тези хора с души погрознели,
за които далеч е този ден,
когато скитали са от любов полудели.
A любовта била до моята врата,
през всичките тези години,
трябвало е да протегна ръка,
"толкова дълга си чакал...прости ми."

Към дома.......

Скитам по улиците,
не ми се прибира!
Вглеждам се в хората
но не те намирам!
Всеки път щом тръгна към дома
се питам защо ли се прибирам
няма никой на моята врата
пак сама се прибирам!

Lost.......

Гледах отстрани колите,
забързани в дъждовната мъгла
а аз стоях спряла с времето
сама в празното платно.
Отразена в капките дъжд
като хиляди лица раздробени,
на парченца пъзел разпилян.
Питах се къде сгреших пътя
коя улица кой завой не видях
как в тази пряка се отзовах....
Стоях в платното празно
а в ръцете ми...поредният крах.

На Х

Back to me......

My blood,
wild river,
my heart
thousand in one,
the words,
burning like fire,
Decision......
on hold.
Solution......
impossible.
I have to go....
back to me....!

To C

Hidden........

I am so tired of her,
I look at her in the mirror
I see her changed,
she looks so sad
her sense of humor gone.
her lips doesn’t smile,
her eyes always with tears
ready to fall like rivers from hell….
She doesn’t sing anymore
Her feet doesn’t dance
She doesn’t speak a lot…
She is other person now.
I know somewhere
behind that reflection,
there is other person I know,
she is strong and helpful
she is loving and always
with a smile on her lips….
I am looking now…
She is hidden…behind those tears
behind so heavy words
and middle finger in her face…..
She is guilty for killing the real one
for turning into this sad mass
of muscles and fake smiles.
I know she is there somewhere
Behind the cracks of the mirror….
I will find her and bring her back to life

To. C

Leave me in peace

I cant sleep at night,
you keep coming
in my dreams,
hurting my soul and skin
my body carry`s the signs
of your heavy words
not leaving me in peace...
Go away please,
i cant live like this
to have you in my mind
......nights and days,
you hurt me enough...
now please...
let me sleep,
let find peace
at least in my dreams.

To C.

The story of my love

Someone asked me,
What is priceless for you?
I said the smile,
the nice word
from someone you love
the hug when I cry
and the hand
that takes me up
from the dirt
when I fall.
The morning
when I open my eyes
and see that someone
is beside of me.
Then someone asked me:
What you got from that?
I said half of it in black!
When I fail….i got blamed
When I cried…I was alone
When I needed the most
Instead of good word
I got pain in my heart.
Then someone asked me:
Why you accept that?
I said: Because I loved!
Then someone told me:
Love is not about pain,
Its about care and smile.
Its about someone by your side.
Its when you wake up
to forget the nightmares
because someone was there!

To C